winding road

i was just updating my ipod and clearing room for some new music in preparation for my travel tomorrow.  it's always interesting to go through my old music.  music has such a huge impact on me. hearing a song can bring back such vivid memories. . .a time, a place, a person, etc.  and there's one song in particular that moves me to tears every time i hear it.

i remember in exact detail the moment i heard that song and connected so deeply with it.  it wasn't the first time i had heard it, but it was a moment in time for sure, marked by this song, where i was in my life and how i i felt the song convey everything i was feeling.  eery and beautiful.

i had recently moved to los angeles from portland.  a month after moving, i flew back to rainy, dreary portland to retrieve the rest of my belongings and turn the page on that chapter.  i was sitting on the airplane listening to my ipod and reflecting on where my life had been and where it was going.  this song came on and moved me to tears thinking about the challenges of going through my 20s. . .not knowing exactly what i wanted out of life or where i would end up, and the hope i had for the future and the new life i was about to begin.

here are the lyrics. . .see if you don't see the similarities.  kind of uncanny.

Well, the rain keeps on coming down

It feels like a flood in my head

And that road keeps on calling me

Screaming to everything lying ahead

And it's a winding road

I've been walking for a long time

I still don't know

Where it goes

And it's a long way home

I've been searching for a long time

I still have hope

I'm gonna find my way home

And I can see a little house

On top of the hill

And I can smell the ocean

The salt in the air

And I can see you

You're standing there

And you're washing your car

And I can see California sun in your hair

And its a winding road

I've been walking for a long time

Still don't know

Where it goes

And it's a long way home

I've been searching for a long time

Still have hope

I'm gonna find my way home

All these dreams took me so far

And I felt I just couldn't go on

And I want to hang

Out the window of your car

And see just how good this baby can run

'Cause it's a winding road

I've been walking for a long time

And I still don't know

Where it goes

And it's a long way home

I've been searching for a long time

Still have hope

We're gonna find our way home

It's a winding road

Still have hope

One day we'll find our way home

It's a long way home

I've been searching for a long time

Still have hope

We're gonna find our way home 

anyway, the song is by Bonnie Somerville and was off of The Garden State soundtrack.  you can listen to it here and cry with me: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9OMr9CbkMUk&feature=related

thank God i did find my way down that winding road. . .all the way home to my little house on the hill. . . where i can smell the ocean. . .and there's LOTS of sun all the time :)